mbaaaakk!!

well,i know that it's wierd to have an emotional relationwith your housemaid.well actually she is my baby sitter until now.I'm not a baby anymore but i act like that.I'm so unindiependent and childish but she is so patient to help me preparing all my stuffs especially in the mornings.She sometimes have to go downstairs and upstairs three times in the morning to find my book,my ruler,my papers and all that kind of stuffs while i'm eating and shouting to her panickly hurried because of time(my bedroom is on the third floor and the dining table is in the second floor.oh yeah she cooks in the first floor).everyday,I wake up at 5.20 and she wakes up at 4.30 to cook my breakfast.well actually thats not the only reason i have an emotional relationship with her.
She worked for my grandmother since 20 years ago.she is still young whenshe started working.when my mom was pregnant my parents moved to USA and she also moved there.
when i was six,she married with a guy and went back to her village.but it doesn't worked very well and she divorced.everytime she saythat she is going back to her village,i cried even my mom also cried and she cried too.
actually she is not a clever housemaid,she sleeps at 8 o'clock and sometimes she doesn't wake up to cook for my breakfast.she is getting old and she always have a terrible headache and stomachache in her period.well,she isn't a good cook.she prefers to give me 20.000 or buy me foods than cook a simple meal.yeah everybody have a dark side don't they?
she has not problems with her finance,her boyfriend (husband next week) always give her money.her phone is n70 and she got high sallary from my mom because my mom trust her very much.she has a white skin and a nice body.sometimes my friend thinks that she's my mom.
a month ago she told me that she is going to get married and probably she is going to live with his husband.my mom let her go,but i dont.i tried to forget it and act like usual,rude and childish to her.
last week was so hectic.i arrived from school so tired and hungry.i rang my doorbell unpatiently and throw my bags to the other maid.I eat and she told me to have a nap.I was so mad because i have an exam tomorrow so i have to study immediately and i really don't have time to have a nap.i talked to her madly.then she leave me alone,she know that i'm very stressed.at night,my mom arrived and she told my mom.I felt really sorry and act nicely to her at dinner.yesterday night, she came to my room and said that tomorrow night at that time she would have already arrived at her village.then i begged her to come back.then she said yes and go out from my room hurriedly.i saw her eyes were wet.she cried.then i cried too.my mom had told her not to come back and told her to rest at home.I'm kind of desperate and i beg my mom to let her work again.my mom didin't say anything.i went back to my room and study in tears.when i started to feel better,she came in and told me to try her fried rice if i liked it,she would buy it for me.i refused and told her to come back.before I go to sleep i'm thinking about tomorrow when she prepare my bags for the last time and I cried again.in the morning i tried not to look at her to prevent me from crying.and i did it.but my eyes are a little bit red.when i arrived from school,she had been ready to go.i begged and she said yes.
this morning was the first morning without her.my mom cooked the breakfast and i prepare my own stuffs.


neeeem!!cepet balik!!
oh yeah i called her without mbak or something in front of it,i know i'm very rude.arrrgghhh